3 Facts for the Day

13 05 2013

1. I’ve spent Mother’s Day in true Motherly fashion by trudging along in a haze of exhaustion. My dear baby girl, who has been sleeping 9 hour stretches at night for the past week, woke prematurely at 2 am. I had already stayed up later than intended reading books to Chloe. I ended up reading myself to sleep, and she wandered off to play with Daddy’s iPhone. I have to give credit to the hubby. He tried to take Bailey so I could sleep a bit more, but in the end she wanted Mommy. After another feeding, she went from spastic tears to screeching giggles. She just wanted to socialize with me. I guess she missed me yesterday. And that’s what Mommy is for. So, Happy Mother’s Day to me, Bailey style.
2. My husband got me a fantastic gift for Mother’s Day. I’m quite certain it is my most favorite gift ever! It’s a silver locket with little birthstone girls inside. I’m very proud of it. I had a fleeting thought after I got it, “ohh, I gotta show Mom.” I quickly remembered I couldn’t. It’s been over 4 years since she passed away, and I still do it. I think about calling her, or telling her something. I don’t know if I’ll ever stop doing that.
3. That leaves me with two separate moods on Mother’s Day. On one hand, I still grieve my Mother not being here. I know she is with Jesus and better off, but I still selfishly want her here with me. On the other hand, I am so joyful to celebrate the greatest gift I have ever received, the gift of Motherhood. I remember when Ben and I decided to have out first child. I had taken care of young siblings growing up. I liked kids. I knew I’d enjoy being a parent, but I had no idea. I didn’t realize that as the relationship with my child grew, that I would feel like a missing piece of the puzzle was found. It was like I was made to be a Mommy, and was just waiting to fill that space of my heart with the love for a child. I’m grateful my Mom showed me how to do it.
Happy Mother’s Day to all.
That is all 🙂





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